It might be- but if so you’re not talking about a lot of the pieces of it.
which, is pretty normal of people experiencing dissociation. It’s very hard to identify what is off- when you’re still off.
But it could also just be emotional numbing. A lot of people shut down when they can’t handle what is going on. And it can be a disturbing experience- and make you feel like a bad person. Like ‘such and such is happening but I can’t make myself care. that’s terrible of me.’
If it’s dissociation- the dissociation post should be able to help some.. for emotional numbing.. not so much.
You have to recognize what you’re emotionally numbing first. That there is an overwhelming amount of bad emotional stimuli going on right now- and that can be hard to deal with. You aren’t a bad person for trying to cope this way.
Now, what emotions do you think you should be feeling?
Be as broad or specific as you like.
and is there anything you can do about the bad news?
Is there any problem solving that you can do to help solve some of the bad news? Or reframing to put things into perspective?
If you want to try and explore the feeling- maybe try to cause the feeling through something else. Whether it be poetry or a movie or someone else’s story.
and as always, self soothing is a pretty good idea. You may find that once you’ve done self-soothing, that the feelings are more manageable and thus more easily accessible.